My blogless state these days…
Posted in Artistic Sheryl on August 26th, 2009When I first started this blog many months ago((Sept. ‘08?)), I took it on sort of as an extended ”art project.” I likened it to a constantly evolving self-portrait composed of words instead of graphite, clay or paint. And truth be told, I simply enjoy writing as a very enriching and therapeutic hobby since I have always preferred self-expression via the written word.
Last Fall, almost a year ago now, I was in a different state of mind. I had different goals and dreams. I was certainly on a vastly different path in life. And for whatever wacky reason, I desperately wanted to share my colorful little window of the world to the rest of the world. So for a while there, I really was on a blogging roll—I updated every few days, enjoyed posting pics of my various adventures and streams of thought, and was starting to acquire a few interested regular readers here and there.
But now??? I suppose my head is in a completely different place. And most of those former breathless blog entries I was so proud to post in detail with accompanying photos galore, I’ve had to place on private hiatus for various reasons.
I suppose one could say that a lot can change in a year. Somehow, merely posting my latest and greatest events and happenings became more draining and time-consuming than I’d originally realized. And when it gets to the point where you’re blogging about your life almost more than you’re actually out LIVING your life, well, that’s when it’s probably time to evaluate a few things and start learning to simply stop and smell the roses once again.
So with that being said, I’m here to simply state why my blog here has gradually become a bit of a ghost town this entire summer thus far. In a way, I certainly do miss blogging about my usual shenanigans and detailing some of my favorite memories…but in another way, it’s quite liberating to suddenly feel that self-inflicted pressure to constantly produce and entertain all but lifted from my shoulders now.
Maybe eventually I’ll get my blog here back on the roll again. Or maybe not…as I grow older, suddenly I’ve grown to value a certain sense of privacy. And in today’s world where everyone can find most anything about you online, that’s growing tougher to acquire indeed.
As I mentioned, my ambitions have indeed changed in this past year, far beyond moving up certain social ladders or traveling to new places for cultural adventures. Right now I’m quietly pursuing a completely new educational area, for instance. I doubt I could ever completely leave behind my love of teaching art, but inside my heart I feel that something else, a calling that I need to start hearing, is compelling me to follow another educational path. I’m as scared and uncertain as I am excited and determined to heed that calling…but it’s never easy to suddenly drop everything you’ve been pursuing for the past four years to go in a somewhat different direction. All I can do is hope and pray that this direction is indeed the right one for me professionally. And in my heart, I feel that it truly is—special education is my new passion.
I eventually want to pursue my Masters Degree by next year. It’ll be a rather expensive and time-consuming pursuit indeed, but one that I feel I’ll never look back and regret…I’d be the first person in my immediate family to ever receive a Masters, which would be oddly compelling in and of itself. But this isn’t to impress my family or somehow make me feel smarter—I just need to do this for me…and also for my career.
And no matter where or what area in which I work professionally, I’ll always be an “artist” at heart. Even though I don’t wake up everyday desperate to draw or paint or create, I have the artistic spirit that always lingers within me…sometimes that bold and independent spirit even gets me in trouble, honestly.
But I got into teaching to use my artistic abilities to enhance the lives of other students. I wanted to share my talents and give children the same enthusiasm and passion for art that I had when I was their age. I look back with such love and affection for my days of schooling, and if I’m able to give yet more students that same sense of adoration for their school days thanks to my art classes, so be it…that’s a worthwhile endeavor on my part, at least.
Teachers have a certain responsibility though—they not only serve as educators, but as mentors and role-models. And as much as part of me would love to promote the artistic lifestyle that I openly support, the far goofier side of myself outside of the classroom, I know that I owe it both to myself and my future students to present myself well online as well as off. This may be the artist Sheryl Spencer’s website, but “Ms. Spencer” still dwells here, and in the interest of keeping the otherwise necessary enigma alive and well, I thus want to keep my postings here far more focused and far less frequent.
So to all my regular blog readers who have likely split this ghost town long before I have, I want to thank you for coming around and giving me reason to further blog for many happy and busy months. I don’t regret a thing and seriously enjoyed documenting one of the best years of my life thus far.
But life goes on, even if certain blogs don’t. And while my life now may be going in a new direction, my appreciation for the written word still lingers on…so until I indefinitely blog again, peace and good will to everyone else with art in their heart and love in their soul. I’ll be here in spirit—and when I finally get back to my old blogging self, you’ll be the first to know…
Ciao for now!!!

























































